Thursday, March 25, 2010

Same ol' same ol' (kind of)

I've been asked from time to time about lapses in blogging. My less frequent appearances are because a lot of healing involves...waiting. And waiting. And waiting. I don't need to visit doctors daily. I just need to wait. But that's what healing is. There's actually a lot going on, but not that lends itself to blogging.

For those of you who know me well, this is not exactly my forte. "Can the wires come off NOW? How about NOW? NOW? NOW? NOW?..."

Otherwise, the days slowly move along, and I wait for the days the wires come off; and then for the days I can move my jaw again; and then for the days I can chew. I wonder if my jaw is always going to look a little distorted as it does right now. I think about when to schedule the nasal surgery. Probably sometime this summer, since the bones need to be healed enough not to create new problems by having more surgery. I wonder what other surgeries will be needed. I was told to expect more and that what they are will become more obvious over time but I don't know yet.

I try to be in the here and now and sometimes I'm better at it than others. Gratitude keeps me in the moment. I think about hoping that someone in the hospital would answer the call button and bring me a Popsicle after several days of vomiting. And then I think about being able to go for a walk and how much better this is than the hospital experience. And I'm grateful for that. When I'm syringing, I remember this could have easily been so much worse. We Friends are a tough family. And I'm grateful for that.

There is a lot to be grateful for. Even when I don't feel like being grateful, there really is a lot to be grateful for.

Anyway, less to blog about daily...but a lot going on...

--K--